Confession no. 4

For some weird reason, I have got into this rut of thinking on the negative lines...I am living a life, wherein I am scared 24x7...if I start evaluating there may not be any visible reasons in the present for me to be so worked up and worried...but that doesn't stop me from letting go the compulsive thinking...my relationships are getting affected by it...something that in turn fuels my negative and constant thinking..its a vicious circle that I am finding hard to get out from...but I have decided to work on it and here are some of the things that I plan to do

1. observe and regulate my thinking pattern...today i would try and regulate my thoughts, as in the moment i realize that i am consciously thinking negatively about something or imagining the negative outcome of something i would start thinking otherwise ( its too difficult but what the heck worth a shot )

2. maintain a journal which i would carry with me which i am planning to carry today (atleast) and i would write down all the positive/pleasant/good things that happen to me throughout the day as and when they happen, lest i might forget.

3. Get a little less protective and paranoid about the new relationship, i think i need to step back and let things shape up with certain amount of spontaneity

4.  get a life, i need a job and i need to get busy and all these thoughts will leave me alone