Its all in the mind

They say, be careful of what you say when you are in others' company and what you think when you are alone..

This thought somehow resonates with me on many different levels, I feel somebody said that to me looking directly in my eyes and almost in a confrontation mode.

There are days or atleast some parts of my days where I have this out of body experience, ie when people are talking about me- especially the good points and I cannot relate to it, I feel that they are talking about somebody else..somebody who is much more popular, confident, trendy, somebody who resembles me at times but is definitely not me..and that leaves me sad and even more under confident

I am going through that phase again, and I really don't know how can overcome this deep feeling of underconfidence.

For some reason I am not able to see the good in me that others can..so in the end they are left wondering as to from where this self depreciating feelings and talks coming from.

I hate it too, I hate my whinny, cribbing self but I still can't help it...

It takes a special effort for me to say anything nice about me, and that way I always end up with negative thoughts in my mind attacking me and because I am always thinking negatively I am never confident about myself..its a painful vicious circle, that I am unable to get out from..

I really really need help.